Well, this weekend was a pretty good end to a full on year. One of my girlfriends has an annual Christmas party on the last weekend of work. This year it was a costume party. The theme was originally Christmas and Easter (for no particular reason) so I decided to go as an Easter chicken. As it turned out, people just wore anything they wanted. The chicken suit was a huge hit. Considering the fact that it’s the middle of summer here, it was rather hot, but I didn’t let that stop me from being ridiculous.
In many ways, this year was a hard one for me. This time last year I had assumed that I’d be well on the way to being a mother by now. Obviously that hasn’t happened yet. Maybe next year. While I am not someone that believes that everything happens for a reason, I do recognise that in one way this process is a blessing. I have had time to come to terms with both the physical and psychological changes that being a parent is going to require. I have had time to prepare myself and my environment for the future. Many people don’t have that opportunity.
I had no idea how hard it would be to run a company as well as having a full time job. As my business took off, my stress levels rose. For the first time in my life I understood what work stress was about. It’s not that I haven’t worked hard before, it’s more that I’m generally not adversely affected by stress. But this stumped me. It probably has something to do with the number of hormone pills I’m being fed on a monthly basis. I have to figure out some coping mechanisms.
But I think by far the most difficult thing for me this year has been watching my mother having to cope with stress. I don’t like to see this infallible person fall apart. For my entire life mum has been superwoman. She has picked us up and given us strength. This year I began to see how it might be in the future as she ages. I’m starting to see how much energy it takes to be the centre of someone’s universe.
On the flip side, some fantastic things happened in 2007. We moved into our new house. It was everything I hoped it would be. It felt like home the moment we walked in, and every evening when I pull into that driveway I get a renewed feeling of how incredibly fortunate I am.
For all the difficulties it has brought – I am grateful for the success of my business. It has taken off faster than I ever believed. I enjoy the extra income and the future security that it provides.
Without a doubt, my number one best pick for 2007 is the success that my brother has achieved this year. After two years of hard work, misery and mistreatment, his star has finally risen. He’s now recognised in Auckland as one of the best bar operators around and for the first time since he embarked on this mission, he can rest on his laurels, should he choose to (which so far he hasn’t). I am proud to share my name with him (that would be Hawk, not Sarah).
So aside from a couple of blips in happiness, 2007 has served me well.
Now I’m off to enjoy my summer. There will be sporadic blogging at best until mid January, when I’ll return tanned, relaxed and more ridiculous than ever.
Here’s to 2008. It’s gonna be a blinder.