Back on the wagon

Well, the ride is over. I’ve spent the last couple of months taking a break from treatment so that I can drink wine and binge on coffee. Today is the last day for a while. I start back on the drugs tomorrow.

I’ve had a bit of a change in mindset about it. Last year I was going through the motions and following the rules grudgingly. This year I almost feel excited about it. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve had a break and am now more ready than ever to have a child, or whether I’ve just gotten my head around things a bit more.

Taking the summer off was the best thing I could have done. Aside from the fact that I wasn’t in town to have the bloods and scans, I really needed the break. Enjoying a few wines in the sun over the holidays is what summer is all about!

I’ve also changed my attitude towards treatment in another way. Last time I was miserable because I felt I was missing out on things when I’d go to special occasions and not be able to drink. In retrospect, I’ve realised that it wasn’t so much the alcohol, but the fact that I ‘wasn’t allowed’. So I’m going to be more relaxed this time. If I go to something special I’ll have a wine if I want one. Not several bottles, as I would have in the past, but a drink with dinner. I suspect that half the time I won’t even want one.

So hopefully my new, slightly more relaxed attitude will help. Now I just have to try and apply it to my exercise regime!